had a bad dream again last night.
i wake up to the back of his neck. i nuzzle my face into his skin and i repeat
i need you
i need you
i need you
i stare at the tattoo on his back
his hair
the way he is curled up in fetal position
and i melt my body into his
as i repeat
i love you
i love you
i love you
he does not hear me
he is still fast asleep
i wonder what he is dreaming about
because
i woke up covered in sweat, from the nightmares of losing everything
he left me
he took my home
he no longer felt love for me
and i try to push myself closer to him
please dont leave me
please dont leave me
please dont leave me
just how badly i need him
how i have cut my heart out with razors
and given it to him
is frightening
terrifying
oh how i would surely cease living
if he ever told me
that his love was lost for me
so i curl up
making sure to let his skin soak into mine
feeling his warmth
yes, he is still here
Very touching.
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Pretty but a bit sad.
I’m reading, I hear you and I hope you guys are ok. *wishes you love and strength*
Everything is my life except I would change all the “he” to she
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My longtime girlfriend left me. I’ve never known pain like this existed. This is what I most want to tell her.